Paradise?

[lised]

Some of you wrote there once and you wrote some really really good things! I know you have girlfriends now, but maybe you still have hurting things in your life? I really miss reading about them! Also the good things of course! Isn't there any chance that you are going to write something there again?

:smt085

[zaqrack]

well I led a Hungarian blog from may to november, with many poetry & prose, but then I realised I'm unable to lead a blog when I'm happy in general, and have someone to share those small problems I have. My general attitude changes, and what  write is always the same and not intresting at all. All I could write about is my daily life with some related thoughts. If that interest you, well then... maybe

[zaqrack]

without your knowing you just made me post again

[alanrotoi]

Well, I have a good thing to say. Since today I have a kitten. She is a siamesian and her name is Maite. I will care her from now (she's about 50 days of life!!). This is one of the greatest things that happened to me. I live alone and I will have a company. Furthermore this kitten will live with my love and work  :cry:  

I already bought everything. Also she has a small ball to play . Next year my nickname in zakstunts will be Maite Rotoi

[zaqrack]

I love kittens

unfortunately I cant have one until I live with my brother since he is very much allergic to kittens.

my girlfriend has the most crazy one, his name is D?me:
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[DieselJoe]

Some of you wrote there once

Where? :roll:

I know you have girlfriends now, but maybe you still have hurting things in your life? I really miss reading about them!

I don't really have the strength yet to write about my actual situation again. There's not much not-hurting in my life at the moment. My girlfriend left me in the mid-november and I still can't get a clear head, only for some short periods when somebody succeeds in distracting me. But this distraction is not easy to reach. :? If you really like reading such things, I'll maybe tell about that some day.

[zaqrack]

Some of you wrote there once

Where? :roll:

http://paradise.danwa.net

believe me, writing a blog is the best way out of depression. really.

[lised]

Some of you wrote there once

Where? :roll:

I know you have girlfriends now, but maybe you still have hurting things in your life? I really miss reading about them!

I don't really have the strength yet to write about my actual situation again. There's not much not-hurting in my life at the moment. My girlfriend left me in the mid-november and I still can't get a clear head, only for some short periods when somebody succeeds in distracting me. But this distraction is not easy to reach. :? If you really like reading such things, I'll maybe tell about that some day.

It may sounds strange, but I do want to hear about it. Though I have Jacob, my life is still very painfull much of the time. I have an eating disorder and I'm manic depressive. I feel sorry for you and because I know the situation where everything is dark, I think you'll be happy again. The best (and hardest) way to get to that "day" is to talk about your pain. Don't fear that we will think that you are weird and that you repeat yourself, because we are grown people and we take it serious no matter what your thoughts are...Good luck, I hope you will tell us (or others) about it some day!  :roll:

[DieselJoe]

Thanks for your words. Talking about it might really be the best, but the days where I met friends to talk about that with them, I had the most sleepless nights. :?
By the way it's not nice to hear the problems you have, either. :smt085  I only know you from some postings here in the forum, but I would never have thought you could have depressions, I had the picture of an all-the-time-happy girl!

[lised]

I understand your doubt about all the talking because of the pain you feel afterwards, BUT I can only tell you that it is the right way you are going. Getting out of a bad period in your life can't be done with out "hard work (=pain)" if you want to get out of it right. Of course you can take distance from it, but it will be bad for you later on (trust me I know about it). So even though it feels wrong to make it all even harder, I'm afraid you have to. Do it the way which is safest to you. Call your friends over, tell your familie, write it down to us or just to yourself to start with. Good luck. You'll make it through!  :smt056

[CTG]

I just completed one part of my exam, it was exhausting. Now I'm afraid of getting a lot worse score then the expected - although I felt good one minute after my examination. Now I think failure has a lot more chance...  :?

[DieselJoe]

I guess you are right, Lise. This evening I'll meet two friends again I neglected a bit too much in the 4 years of my relationship. Guess we'll be drinking a lot! :lol: I can be happy they welcomed me again that way! I can talk with them about such things better than I would have thought.
Thanks again

[DieselJoe]

Not a great day for the final-track-racing-day in two competitions for me, my grandmother died of intestinal cancer today. She didn't even get 70 years old, some people even race Stunts in that age :?

[lised]

Oh dear! You are not very lucky are you?  :smt087 At least I hope you had a good night with your friends and enjoyed yourself a bit. Try to keep your head up though it's even harder now!   8-[

[DieselJoe]

Yes, yesterday evening was funny! After we had drunk enough we went night-sleighing, we have a small mountain here. Oh shit, were we wet after that! :mrgreen: I guess Anne won't have had much fun going to work at 7 am today :roll: